Life in limbo

Life in limbo. 

Our lives are pretty unconventional. My husband doesn’t work a normal 9-5. Home in time for dinner, off Saturdays and Sunday’s. I am a stay at home mom to two young kids. We are lucky to be able to pick up and go with him where he is working but it doesn’t come without major stress and anxiety. 

We have been in Tallinn, Estonia now for two weeks. And we have plans to travel to a few more countries before the summer is through. My husband’s career gives us a lot of freedom, but also a lot of restrictions. 

Here’s a look into what we do when we prepare to join Daniel on a work trip:

I had to book my two pit bulls in the kennel  for the duration of our trip. 

I had to return my BMW lease off early, since the return date was while we were going to be abroad. 

I had to pack for three people. Which is hard. I have to make sure all of us have enough clothes, shoes, toiletries, etc for two months and two climates. And make sure the bags are not overweight. 

I had to book a car service to take us to the airport. I need help with 2 large suitcases, 1 carryon, 1 double stroller, 1 diaper bag, and 2 kids backpacks. Getting all of this luggage to the check in counter is a mission in itself. 

Lastly, I had to make sure the house was clean. Fridge and freezer cleaned out, all garbage taken out. 

Let’s also keep in mind I do this all by myself. My Mom flew in the weekend before we left, so any last minute errands I needed to do she was able to stay at home with the kids. That was a huge help. We had thought we could head to LAX together, but she had a stand by at 8am. And our flight was at 4pm. We said bye bye to “Gram” early in the morning and braved the trip to the airport by ourselves.

So now we are here, we get to enjoy our time here in Estonia, but come the next leg of our trip to Amalfi, Italy...Daniel doesn’t even know when production is flying them out there. “Sometime before the end of the month.”

What do I do? Here comes where our life is in limbo. Do I book flights for myself and the kids early and stay at a hotel and wait for him to arrive and transfer hotels? Do I wait till I found out his travel date and try to book flights last minute? And risk possibly having to stay in Estonia a night or two because there isn’t that many flights departing that connect to Italy. 

Can anyone feel my anxiety building? I’ve been going back and forth with possible scenarios for the past week. And still no resolution. Do I book flights, then change them last minute and get charged some crazy amount of money? 

I am so so thankful we get to go with Daniel to many amazing places. But it doesn’t come without a price (out of his pocket, and my sanity). I have OCD and to not be in control is very difficult for me. Just have to keep imagining myself on the beach in Italy (soon) with a glass of wine in hand. And one kid in the ocean floating in the waves with water wings on and one probably eating sand. Vacation is fun, am I right?